The Solution Part 1

Hi everyone!
First of all, I’d like to thank the members of JGUYUSGUY for their emails and comments. I know that you we all have our own problems and mine is really not THAT big.

It’s been a while since my last post. (I posted a “mini” blog prior to this because I felt I needed to.)

I’ve been taking some time with myself for a while now watching movies, going to karaoke boxes, dining out, getting massages (umm…the non-sexual one). Wait, did I mention I’ve been doing all of these alone??! I’m a very lonely man! Well, not really. I’ve been a loner since high school. I enjoy being alone.

Anyway, while sipping latte at Starbucks last week, there was this male couple sitting accross me that got my attention. (Well, I don’t know if they are indeed a couple but they looked cute together. LOL) Anyway, while looking at them I realized exactly what I need in life right now…romance. Not money or sex…just romance. But the problem now is: where do I get it?

Ok. Let’s leave that question alone for a while and focus on my other problems. I looked back on my problem list and realized money is not my problem. The pressure involve in providing that money forever is my problem. I don’t mind helping my family. My sister helped me when I was in college and now it’s my turn to give back.

I was talking with my mother on the phone a couple of days ago and out nowhere she said: “No one is pressuring you to help us. Do not give more than what you can.” And considering that I spend around 30,000yen/month on phone bills (and 10,000yen on coffee) I can give them 30,000yen without hurting my savings.

This pressure that I feel is all in my mind. No one is pressuring me but myself. Now that’s something that I have to work in the days to come. In the meantime, let’s get back to my romance problem.

To be continued…